Nicole , at Annas House, 1998

Nicole was gay, we knew that. At least I knew, she was still not sure about it. I was not and will never be gay, maybe it’s also that I don’t like the idea of having to classify myself. I like sex. With girls or boys doesn’t matter.

It was a time in which Nicole, Anna, Katharina and I used to hang out at Anna’s place. We would meet up there every Friday and just have some drinks. Katharina was gay, too. Knew it but wouldn’t openly talk about it. Anna was straight. We had a good time together and felt comfy with each other. Since all 4 of us were a bit different to the other girls at school, we enjoyed each other’s company.

The second time we met up, Nicole and I kissed a bit while the other 2 kept on drinking. It was obvious for both of us that we wanted to go a bit further tonight than any other night. We kissed around before that and there has always been this desire for more, especially from her side, since she wanted and needed to find out if she really was gay or not.

So, we waited until the other 2 went to sleep and then slowly started to undress each other. It was silent; we didn’t talk but just looked at each other. We took our time, also to find out if and how much we liked what was happening there. I kissed her tits and she sucked my nipples. So far so good. I liked it. Her lips were very tender and it felt good to be touched by someone that is just like you. It was soft and easy going.

She was a bit faster than I was, I wasn’t sure if I could touch, let alone lick a cunt.

She took my panties off and played with my clit. It was different than with a boy but it was good. I let go and allowed her top got further.

She fingered me and explored my pussy from the outside and from the inside. I was getting really wet which seemed to make her happy. I took her underwear off, too and started to stroke her clit. It felt weird, having someone else’s clit between my fingers. A little bit like when you caress yourself.

She slowly worked her way down on me, kissed my boobs, my belly, stopped at my belly button and took her time. Looking back at it now, it was sweet and innocent. Really, really good.

She spread my legs and wanted to lick my pussy. I looked at her and her face said „Yes, I do want to do this!“ so I let it happen.

She licked my cunt and put her tongue around my lips, she licked my lips from bottom to top and vice versa. Again, she took her time. It was sex, but a little bit like the first time with a man, too. No one really knew what to do next. A bit insecure.

She licked the whole area down there which I really enjoyed. Hang on a second, now that I come to think of it: I have to start telling my boys to do that too!!

She put her tongue into my pussy and fucked me with her tongue and one finger. It wasn’t as satisfying as normally but it was soo nice! I felt so comfortable; it felt like I am drowning. In a good way.

She turned me around and wanted me to sit on top of her. I played with her boobs; they were very nice. I took them in my hands and played with the area between her boob and her belly – that area is so gentle and soft and since I like to be caressed there, I did it on her. She liked it. I didn’t get down on her. When my finger found their way to her pussy, she was really wet. It was rather confusing to me, I have to admit. I cannot lick that, I thought! Even fingering her was tricky to me, but I did it anyway. She stopped me, I guess because she could sense that I wasn’t really into that. I sat on her belly and looked at her quite puzzled.

She started to move my hips forth and back and now I knew what she wanted. Se wanted me to fuck her with my pussy.

So I did, what I always do. My pussy moved on her pussy and her months. Because I was on top it felt good for me. It was like riding a boy but without the dick inside me. I mean, when you fuck a boy, it’s not only the dick that makes you come, it’s also the fact that your clit is rubbing against his bone down there. So I moved forth and back, up and down and couldn’t stop. I told her that I wanted to stop in order to please her, but she just said that I should keep going.

So I jerked off on her. My first orgasm with a girl. Hurray!

I lay down next to her and played with her clit and her pussy until she came. Fair enough that I didn’t like the feeling that much but she allowed me to come and so I wanted to pay her back.

She came eventually and we fell asleep curled up together.

The next couple of times we hung out at Anna’s house, it was always the same. We would kiss in front of the others, wait until they went to bed and then have sex.

With time, we became more confident with each other and with this whole cunt loving thing. I never licked her Because I couldn’t imagine to do that, but I got better in fingering her. We swapped, sometimes, she would sit on top, sometimes, I would. We were not that far to bring sex toys with us, I mean, the whole I idea was not to insert anything in our cunts, right? So we just had our fingers and cunts. We had a good time together and I hope she liked it, too!

Years after, I heard that she finally admitted to be a lesbian. Her parents know and everyone else, too. She had a girlfriend and was really happy, once the truth was out. I like to believe that I was part of this whole coming-out process.

I am still not gay even though my mum keeps telling me that it would be okay to bring a girl home – she just wants me to be in a proper relationship. If only she knew!

~ von sexcapaden am Februar 7, 2009.